DEAR PAPA

Dear Papa, Let go… forget all about it… I guess it’s easier said than done. Sometimes I'm tempted to spiral down this drain of unforgiveness. Why do I have to be at the receiving end of offensive words spoken out of turn?  Forgiveness… this looks like a bitter pill to swallow. Why should I let go? Because Jesus did!! He forgave when He could have unleashed the wrath of heaven on humanity. Such a display of grace and strength! He suffered wayyy more than I can ever go through. Yet, in His dying moments His heart ached for the very ones who hurt Him; pleading for the people who mocked, beat, and nailed Him to the cross. He would have been tagged a weakling today; someone who couldn’t stand up for himself. I can imagine how perplexed the devil was, when this ‘weak man’ destroyed the gates of hell and made a public spectacle of him and his agents. Father, it can be so hard to forgive and I really need You to show me how. When thoughts of past hurts flood my mind, may I remem...

Dear Papa, Thoughts... memories... fears... doubts keep flashing through my mind. Thoughts that I'm not good enough. Memories of past shame and pain. Fears of what the future holds. Doubts that I won't be able to live in Your will for my life. They snowball into a huge mass of unhealthy musings that make me believe that I don't deserve to live another day on this earth. These thoughts bombard me and I feel I'm about to self-destruct. Maybe I should end my misery once and for all.... No! Wait! This is not Your plan for me. I can't go down without a fight. These thoughts are not my own! The devil is a liar and I can't afford to fail my generation and the ones to come. You have poured out soo much into me and this race can't end before I get to the finish line. The enemy in his craftiness tries to make You look like a hard taskmaster who is only interested in what I can do for Him but all You really care about is me. Yes, me! With all my faults and...