DEAR PAPA

I remember that day like it was yesterday. It was a hot afternoon and after what seemed like grueling hours of listening to teachers dictate notes, it was break time. Your girl was thirsty! Going to the tuck shop just to buy a sachet of water was not an option because the queue was too long and I couldn’t imagine going through that torture. There and then; a light bulb moment! “Go and buy it from the teacher’s house", the thought seemed to say. Yes, why not? Well, we had been forbidden from buying water anywhere apart from the tuck shop. So there I was, at a crossroad: to do or not to do? Well, joining that queue was not an option so on I walked to the teacher’s house side by side with a companion and it felt sooo right! Everything was going according to how I had planned it in my head ...that is until the moment the Assistant Headmistress herself(I shall call her Mrs. S.) stopped me from getting what I needed to quench my thirst. She appeared from nowhere and that was when...

Dear Papa, Why do I feel so lonely? Time is ticking and I feel like I'm a thousand miles away from meeting the one You've prepared for me. The wait is killing me and to be honest with You, I feel like tomorrow will never come. This emotional roller coaster is tormenting me and trying to deprive me of thinking rationally. How much longer do I have to wait? Is it wrong to want to meet him now already?😩 It's so easy to put up a front that I have it all together but when unbidden thoughts come, they leave me with this deep sense that  something is missing. I know You want me to be confident in who I am in You but it's like all my defenses are falling down and I feel the brunt of being single. My heart longs to be in a different place. My mind tells me otherwise, that where I am right now is of great importance and I cannot embark on a journey I have not prepared for. Your plans for me are beautiful and wonderful so I'll wait no matter how difficult it may seem....